to the morning then

i came to morning
with a jam and couldn't
find it in my head to
make a warm spot in my bed

so i said here's my bed

then i fed on a crumb
on my shirt from the food
i had eaten an hour ago

i would have said yum
but i coughed instead

coughed till mucous ran
coughed till my lungs bled
and ran and bled up my throat
and into my hands which
i wiped on my shirt where
the crumb was i fed to myself
before the cough

then i sloughed off the covers
off my bed and sloughed off
the clothes on my back
and legs till i stood naked
and shaking and coughing still
but moving much faster
both in body thrusting
and mind numbing laughter

where am i going in my
swaying moment here i hear
my voice tone i know
i will fall soon i hope
i can fall flat on my bed

flat on my bed
flat on my bed

heard in my head not to
hurt my head when i fall
flat flat flat flat flat

in the morning i will find
that i fell flat on my head
in my bed sloughed of clothing
and aching for more crumbs
ready to jam through and
jam it again--in the morning
in the morning oh in the morning

to the morning then